Of blue skies, mighty mountains and the gushing breeze,
Of the colourful birds and the open fields
Of windswept deserts and lush green trees.
I believe you when you tell me nothing can go wrong
But you miss the roaring seas waiting to devour me,
And the colourful rainbow that is but a farcical fantasy
Or that endless dreams are not a part of my destiny.
I believe you when you tell me that I will always be loved
But you don’t tell me about the black monster out there,
I see it watch me as I go through the chores of life
Wondering if the monster is a giant cuddly bear.
I believe you when you tell me that there is a world of opportunities for me
But you don’t tell me how hard I will have to fight and still fail,
How society casts a roving evil eye
Leaving me, at every step, to fight tooth and nail.
I believe you when you tell me it is the safest place to be
But what do you say about the shadow that I am pushed towards,
I try to ignore the discomfort by singing my favourite song
But how can I when the monster clamps me shut inwards.
I believe you when you tell me that a prince will come and whisk me away
But shouldn’t it feel like I am on cloud nine,
This cruel shadow leaves me by the road, ashamed of myself
I feel unworthy of living, doubting what in this world is mine.
I believe you when you tell me the pain will go away
Though I can’t ignore it, try as I might,
I see the helplessness in your eyes as you watch life ebb out of me
But I want you to hold on and continue this fight.
I believe you when you tell me it is just a bad patch
But I cannot forget the dark night and the way it changed me,
The constant losing battle with life begins to take a toll
The only wish is to be set free.
I believe you when you tell me the journey beyond will be smooth
But I can’t keep my eyes awake to see your smiling face,
I want to soak the sun in my bones and run in the wild
I still believe you when you say the world is a beautiful place.