I Believe You

I believe you when you tell me the world is a beautiful place

Of blue skies, mighty mountains and the gushing breeze,

Of the colourful birds and the open fields

Of windswept deserts and lush green trees.

 

I believe you when you tell me nothing can go wrong

But you miss the roaring seas waiting to devour me,

And the colourful rainbow that is but a farcical fantasy

Or that endless dreams are not a part of my destiny.

 

I believe you when you tell me that I will always be loved

But you don’t tell me about the black monster out there,

I see it watch me as I go through the chores of life

Wondering if the monster is a giant cuddly bear.

 

I believe you when you tell me that there is a world of opportunities for me

But you don’t tell me how hard I will have to fight and still fail,

How society casts a roving evil eye

Leaving me, at every step, to fight tooth and nail.

 

I believe you when you tell me it is the safest place to be

But what do you say about the shadow that I am pushed towards,

I try to ignore the discomfort by singing my favourite song

But how can I when the monster clamps me shut inwards.

 

I believe you when you tell me that a prince will come and whisk me away

But shouldn’t it feel like I am on cloud nine,

This cruel shadow leaves me by the road, ashamed of myself

I feel unworthy of living, doubting what in this world is mine.

 

I believe you when you tell me the pain will go away

Though I can’t ignore it, try as I might,

I see the helplessness in your eyes as you watch life ebb out of me

But I want you to hold on and continue this fight.

 

I believe you when you tell me it is just a bad patch

But I cannot forget the dark night and the way it changed me,

The constant losing battle with life begins to take a toll

The only wish is to be set free.

 

I believe you when you tell me the journey beyond will be smooth

But I can’t keep my eyes awake to see your smiling face,

I want to soak the sun in my bones and run in the wild

I still believe you when you say the world is a beautiful place.