Atleast don’t mock us with a false sense of hope that we are truly safe here – we are no idiots.
Ssup? Wow, it sure is weird writing a letter to you. But then you’ve gone so far away from us that I wonder if they have an Airtel connection there. I try calling you like a million times, but then, your phone is switched off. Like always, I send a nasty message to revert and expect your call anytime now – full of reasons for being unavailable on the phone – ranging from “I was just about to call you, but then….” or “I was stuck in traffic” to the eternal classic “I was in a photo shoot”. But no such call came from you. Not today. Not ever.
God has funny ways of showing us just how much we take people for granted, and just how much importance they hold in our lives – it is by taking them away from us. Sure we have had our ups and downs, but then, who doesn’t? Fights, laughter, lengthy discussions about random topics, train journeys, photo escapades were all so much fun with you around. And our unsaid policy of “politely agreeing to disagree” on matters of conflict helped us to not get at each other’s throats!
The bond we shared has been so inexplicable, so beautiful. So full of life, so genuine, so crazy – it will take a while to get used to the fact that you aren’t going to be around to pump my enthusiasm. You’ve been a wonderful friend – helping me when I was totally messed up with my own life, making me believe in myself once more and convincing me to do what I love the most.
Of course I’m mad at you for going away so suddenly, so rudely – but then I understand, God too wants some kick-ass people around him for entertainment. You know, it poured like crazy for about 15 minutes after they got you home. I knew you had reached your final destination then – only you could have convinced Him to send us a shower after the near draught in Mumbai. I looked up at the sky and smiled. I almost reached out my hand to touch you as you lay motionless on the floor – but you looked so peaceful that I did not have the heart to wake you up.
Maybe I should have hugged you a little tighter when I bid you goodbye last night. Maybe I should have stayed back for some more time to talk. Maybe I should have listened more carefully even when you ranted about mundane things. But you are gone now – and all I am left with are the “Maybe’s”
So how is it up there? Lush greens and endless blues? I can imagine you sipping on some good old wine, working your charm on the pretty ladies with delicate wings and enjoying thoroughly in the land where the sun never sets. Yeah, it’s going to be a while where you can continue mingling with the celestial bodies on your own – but mind you, when the rest of us join you up there, we’ll start off from where we left and have one Hell of a time!
You are free now, free from the bonds that bind us to this world of unwarranted expectations. You are in a happier place now – wherever you may be.
Rest In Peace Nimesh, hope you bid adieu to this world knowing fully well that you were loved by so many of us here and will be missed by many more.
Catch ya later, stud! Lotsa love!